ON MARCH 15TH, 2006 SOMETHING HAPPENED THAT CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER, AND SINCE THAT DAY MY LIFE HAS BEEN ON A ROLLER COASTER RIDE, BUT FOR ONCE IN A LONG LONG TIME I'M UP FOR THE FIGHT.

THERE COMES A TIME IN YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU LOOSE FRIENDS, FAMILY, LOVE, HOPE, BUT NONE OF THAT MATTERS BECAUSE GOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.
YOU MAY BE SO HEAVILY BURDENED THAT YOU ARE UNABLE TO HEAR OR SEE HIM BUT HE'S THERE, WATCHING, AND WAITING FOR YOU TO GET TIRED OF TRYIN TO DO THINGS ON YOUR OWN...AFTER ALL HE WATCHES OVER THE SPARROW.

HE WILL THEN BLESS YOU WITH MOTIVATION TO GO ON DESPITE THE "LACK THEIR OF" IN YOUR LIFE NO MATTER IF ITS MOTHER, FATHER, FRIENDS, LOVE, GOD CAN PROVIDE ALL OF THAT IN WAYS THAT THE NATURAL EYE CANNOT SEE BUT DIG DEEP....LOOK AT THE FOREST INSTEAD OF THE TREE AND KNOW IN THE END THAT EVERYTHING IS EVERYTHING...AND EVERYTHING IS GOING 2 BE FINE!!

MOMMY DEAREST,
THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS THAT I WAS UNABLE TO TELL YOU MOMMY, BUT I KNOW THAT U KNOW. THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS WORLD WHO UNDERSTOOD ME EVEN WHEN I DIDNT UNDERSTAND MYSELF WAS SNATCHED FROM MY LIFE, BUT IF ITS A SACRIFICE I HAVE TO MAKE SO THAT YOU DONT HAVE TO SUFFER ANY MORE THEN SO BE IT.IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO GET TO THIS POINT AND...NO I DONT UNDERSTAND IT EVEN 1 YEAR 9 MONTHS AND 28 DAYS LATER, AND I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE OKAY WITHOUT YOU AND IM NOT....BUT I'M DOIN BETTER. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME I SEE PROGRESS. I MISS U SO MUCH AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE HERE WITH ME IN SPIRIT EVERYDAY. PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR LOOSING SIGHT OF MY GOAL AND LOOING MY FAITH IN MYSELF AND GOD. JUST KNOW THAT I AM TRYING MOMMY THATS ALL YOU EVER ASKED OF ME WHILE YOU WERE HERE AND I KNOW THATS ALL YOU WANT NOW. KEEP 'EM SMILIN UP THERE, JUST LIKE YOU DID WHILE YOU WERE HERE. LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU GIRL!!! KISSES.
YOUR DAUGHTER.
1-28-08